Selective amnesia

my friends will be able to tell you how often i get amnesia ever since i've entered med sch. not sure if my fellow med frens have this socially debilitating disorder. lemme know if u do, so at least i know i'm normal...

i shall make use of this opportunity to say my most sincere apologies to my dearest friends.

• to ppl whose birthdays i've forgotten these few years: i really din mean to forget your birthdays. it's not that you dun mean anything to me but it's just that i have a knack for forgetting birthdays.

• to ppl whom i've forgotten some details abt ur lives: i'm sorry if i've asked you twice or thrice what course u're doing, where you're working now, asked you about your bro cos i forgot u've only got sisters, forgotten that you dun drink coffee, or forgotten your favourite food, etc. it's not that i din pay attention when you were tokking to me, it's just that as i read more sets of notes, my memory of ur life got replaced bit by bit.

• to ppl whom i've forgotten to contact for a chill-out session: i really wanna meet up with ya... but somehow things slip my mind as the week gets busy. and before i know it, TGIF already and i suddenly recall all the fun stuff i'm supposed to have during the weekends (which includes chilling out wif ya!). so sorry if i've been pretty last minute in my planning!

• to ppl i haven't mailed, smsed or called in a while: i haven't completely forgotten you! and i definitely still wanna keep the friendship going! will get round to it as soon as i get my stack of reading done, stuff cleared out... i'm so sorry!

somehow as i struggle to digest anatomy, physiology, blahblah... paeds, medicine, surg... causes of liver failure, treatment of asthma and ten thousand lists of differential diagnoses slowly chew away my memory of other aspects of my life. in the end, hai... my family members and my dear friends suffer the most.

i know some ppl will say tt's all rubbish... tt i'm just making excuses for myself... but all i know is, i'm really not a powerwoman. i wish i am but i'm really just an ordinary person and dun really haf the bottomless capacity to make sure every single aspect of my life receive 100% attention. i'm trying my best... hopefully tt's enough...