Missing in Action

wow... it's been more than 2 months since i updated my blog! and i've really been missing in action for 2 months in terms of social life. seriously...

yesh... work is that tough on me the past 2 months. or should i say i've sold myself to my work and stopped doing anything else! (almost...)

sometimes i get so disillusioned and i wonder whether i've really glorified the fun of a job with lotsa human interaction. cos if there's TOO much human interaction (some pleasant, some not too pleasant), it takes a tole on me sometimes and when i finish a long 12-hr day of human interaction, ALL i want to do is really go home, shut myself in a room and avoid speaking to anyone anymore.

it was particularly worse in august when i was doing a HOMO posting as a paying-class MO. no HO's plus lotsa demanding A1/B1 patients. demanding A1/B1 patients stresses the poor nurses in the ward and who else can the nurses transfer the stress to?? me lor...

Nurse: Dr! have you updated the patient's son?
Me: HAR? i tot i just did?
Nurse: Oh... this is another son. He's asking for an update now.
Me: WHAT? how many sons does he have? Grr... i'll come in a while.

Nurse: Dr! The patient asked if the CT scan can be done today.
Me: Er... no. It's like 5pm already and her scan is not urgent. It'll be tomorrow the earliest.
Nurse: Dr... can you come and explain to the patient?

Not to mention different consultants calling me for updates/orders for all their patients at different times of the day.

At the end of the day, i'm just sick and tired of humans and their multiple demands. So all i did was went home after work. Home was like a sanctuary where nobody will make a demand on me. My parents leave me be to NUA my evenings and nights away cos they know how tired i am. My siblings know better than to bother me with anything.

Yeah... i hated ME in the past 2 months. i do still get satisfaction at work and love my job of course. but it sucked all my energy till nothing is left for things other than work. I still haven't picked up my new hobby... partly cos i haven't found a perfect new hobby yet and partly cos the inertia of getting started is so great. life was really pathetic then.

Anyway, i'm now getting a slacker posting (clinic) in compensation for the horrible time i had the past few months. Now work starts later and ends much earlier. i finally have the time and energy to meet up with old friends to catch up. also managed to finish reading another good albeit tear-jerking book called "Marley & Me". and i guess also update my dusty and rusty old blog.