How we've grown...

it's amazing how much we've all grown and learnt in the past 5 years.

i still remember how we didn't even know all the muscle names of the arm on the first day of med sch... how we were suddenly thrown with weird bacterial names that nic so rightly said "looked like someone randomly pressed on the computer keyboard"... how we couldn't seem to remember which drug is which... how we were struggling with the causes of vomiting of blood in our "eclinics"... and how we go "ah.. erm... huh..." when we're asked a random question during ward rounds.

gosh... look at us now! not just me, him or her... but us as a whole! we've absorbed all the crazee amount of info like a sponge and come out quite nicely as adept final year medical students. doesn't matter if not all of us can sprout out all the nitty gritty details... it's ok that some of us are better at different topics... most of us (at least those around me) are mostly there! it's just so amazing!!

it's really self-gratifying to know that i've not wasted the past 5 years of my life cos i can really look back and see all the things that i've struggled through and mastered along the years. i've observed a change in myself in a positive way in terms of knowledge and capabilities.

what's more, our career is one of the special ones that requires core knowledge learnt in university. this adds on to the pressure of having to master all the important knowledge. fortunately, it also contributes to the self-satisfaction in the end and a more positive outlook towards my future career. i'm definitely not saying that i've mastered everything liao... is that even possible? but i guess it being so vast and me being such an optimist, just grasping a part of it gives me a lot of satisfaction already.

i'm so glad i chose the right course. (strange to say this right at the end.. shouldn't i have realized it long ago? haha!) think no other course would've drawn so much interest, motivation and satisfaction in me. well, i guess i can't say for sure either since i haven't experienced any other uni courses. but for now, i really can't think of any other course that can parallel medicine, for me that is.

haha... i know i really shouldn't be ruminating about such stuff now... well, guess it's just some mental "commercial breaks" in between all the mugging. especially since i can't destress physically by retail therapy or movies.

okie.. end of commercial break... haha...