the end is near...

yes... my schooling days are almost over with this last stretch of horrible exams to take. i shall not elaborate on how horrible my first paper was... haaii... what's over is over. i shall just brace myself for more horror to come...

strange that an end of something leads on to the beginning of another thing. somehow, working in generally doesn't appeal to me as much as schooling. but at this juncture, i really wanna get outta this and start the next phase of my life. ha... it's a ploy... to place exams right at the back of something as good as schooling... so that we'll unwittingly look forward to working... so that we'll be lured into the abyss where politics and backstabbing happens.

i really enjoyed my school days... from pri, sec, jc to uni. although so many ppl claimed that the education system here (especially during my time) is too meritocratic, suppresses creative thinking in children, etc, i think in the end, it was a good-enough education for me. well... i believe a good-enough education is one that prepares me for my adult life... one that teaches me the basic survival skills in life... it doesn't hafta be something amazing like teaching me how to solve the maths olympiad questions.

that day, i had to write an official letter to the bank to claim my cash benefit. i switched on the computer and very naturally just started to type. before i knew it, the official letter with perfect formatting and proper english was out. i'm not trying to brag... honestly, there's nothing really great about knowing how to write a letter. but as i thought again, would i have been able to do it that naturally if not for my sec sch english lessons?

it's the simple things that count in the end... like cooking a simple meal, sewing up dropped buttons, speak in proper english, walk and sit like a lady, understand letters from various authorities or read directions on the streets. dun laugh and say "haha! who doesn't know how to do all that?" you'll be surprised... we take these things for granted. there are ppl who dunno cos they never had a chance to learn them.

i'm gonna miss school days. in school, u're never responsible for anyone or anything else, except urself. you study hard and do well in school for your own sake and not for anyone else (hopefully tt's the case...). you dun hafta answer to anyone for your actions or no actions (except doing ur homework in time so ur teacher wun bug u i guess). it's gonna be a totally different ball game when we start working... even more so in our profession...

why do i desperately wanna finish my exams and graduate... and yet dun wanna leave this blissful state?