TGIF!

Thank God It's Friday! haha! i'm all geared up for the weekend man after such a tiring and draining week.

It's not that I was so busy in the hospital or what. But I think it's been so long since we hafta sit in lectures n case presentations and pay attention. or stand for 2 hours during ward rounds and be alert coz a question or a chest Xray will be shoved into your face by the consultant anytime. or wake up at 5.45am to shower n take a 1 hr mrt ride to the hospital. to reach home at 7 and still haf a whole stack of reading to do. tiring huh?

oh well... it's not as bad as it sounds la... i think i just hafta get used to it.

Something terrible happened midweek that scared me to hell... it made me feel angry, helpless, useless, worried, overwhelmed, terrified... a lot of people think i'm an emotionless person, or at least i appear to haf only one emotion - happiness - in me. well... i do have emotions but i cover them real well if i see a need to. i mean what is the point of showing off all those emotions at that time? will that help the situation? at midweek, someone else needed my help, my guidance and my consolation! no matter how i feel inside, i have a mission to do then and tt is to find out what my fren needed and do whatever i can to help!

I took a deep breath and told myself: I will be strong. I will not cry. I will not flare up and scold my fren for being foolish. I will not add any more fuel onto my fren's raging emotions. I will just have to listen. I will be my fren's rational thought during this crisis.

yup! so i am not emotionless like i appear to be k... i just have this ability to hide it when i need to. so sometimes, i do show some of my emotions too but only when there's a necessity for it. maybe that's why i sometimes feel i'm suited for psychiatry huh?